So last night I found out that the Bookstore where I work is closing down for good. It will not be moving like they led us to believe a few weeks ago. This is the store I have worked at since two months after I turned 16... I am 29 now, do the math. It is where I met Aaron at. It is where I worked with my best friend during high school and college, and made close friends with, little brother's and sister's that I did not have in real life and older brother's while in high school that I always wanted to have. I worked at this store while Aaron and I were engaged and while I was a newlywed. I worked there while I was pregnant with Abby and Calvin... took a few years off to have the other two but went back before Max turned a year old. I went in to work one night and got called that my daughter was being sent to the ER with RSV and my boss turned to me and told me to just leave, go home, now, he would get everything squared away. She was in the hospital for four days but I will never forget the relief of being able to just grab everything and run without any pressure. This is where I met customers that have impacted me with their stories and who I will likely never see again or be a part of their lives. I will miss it terribly, it has been such a huge part of who I am. I have worked there for almost half of my life. Yes, this is what I was/am angry about from yesterday. There is still much I am working through and if I am quiet on the subject, well that is only because I am attempting to take the high road and sometimes to do that we just need to buy a butt-load of duck tape and wrap half the roll around our mouths... or so it seems. My boss put it well, this was an assignment from God, we have done our jobs, it is time to find a new assignment from Him. We will be fine money wise. It was play money basically. I told my friend Anna... now I will have time to do stuff, but just not the money to do any of it LOL! Isn't that what it always comes down to though... time and or money. So, in case you were wondering, that is what is going on. I don't really feel like talking about it a whole lot. God is going to do a good work in me but it will be all Him which means very little of my mouth. I just pray I can finish out my job with an attitude that would make Him proud of me in all that I do and that is increasingly hard to do as I put together pieces of what has been culminating. It will be a long journey but God is good... all the time... all the time... God is good!