Today is feeling a better day... some of the bitterness is starting to wear thin. Kind of like the sun finally coming out and shining on the driveway. It is still icy and cold but you can see warm spots where the solid ground is showing through. I think having sunshine has helped to get me out of my funk and while there will always be things I wish were done different and things that I definitely think were handled in the wrong way, I will be fine. I will move on, I will still be sad to leave this odd family of mine that has changed and grown over the years but God has a plan.

It is going to take some time though. I don't want to rush to a new venture any time soon. I want to be sure that what it is that God has planned for me and my family is His will and not some idea that just popped into my head. I feel nudgings toward pursuing something but I do not know if that will be where he leads me. I have thought about looking into at-home medical transcription. I have a small background in the medical field. I have taken one class on medical terminology which would help me out. I have decent typing skills, it is kind of a set your own hours deal in which I could work anywhere. My sister-in-law has been doing it for a year and a half now and seems to be happy with her results. She is going to send me the contract to look over and I imagine we will talk things over during Christmas. She seemed to be encouraging about the venture. I will give it some time though and see where God leads me on it still.

God is good, God is faithful and His love endures forever...

I heard this song on Thursday and the words struck me in a whole other way then every other time I have heard this song. It is by Donna Summer and I got the lyrics off of www.songlyrics.com and just seems fitting for this moment in time...

I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must i walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now

Breath of heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
Lighten my darkness
Pour over me your holiness
For your are holy
Breath of heaven